I'VE TAKEN ILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH.there goes my new year countdown.=(

guess the pics shall be loaded some other time.i'm too sick to do anythin.


i dun like you!!!!!!!dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb!!i'm out sick n u're out enjoying!!(i think.)argh!dammit.i miss the times when you get all uptight bout' me.but i guess i can't even let you know.your phone's gone.gee.i'm upset.


signed,sealed,delivered.

i lurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrve "the suite life of zack and cody"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



LOL.


tt's all for today..pictures shall be out tmr.


HOHOHO.


signed,sealed,delivered.

i'm back from dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL..

the brazilian restaurant wasn't bad..cept tt it was a little salty..><

pics are below:

MY MUMMY AND ME!!!okay,i know i look screwed.i'm still not used to my phone's camah-ra.

MY COUSIN AND ME!!!!!!!!!and once again,i look screwed.and old.sigh.

that's all for today..

signed,sealed,delivered.

I'M BORED.FRIGGIN' BORED.

lol.went out with ivan to watch his sis's concert today at vch..ain't bad.but ivan was being gay by saying,"that guy is cute."every now and then.==

although tt,we did see a reeeeeeaaaallly cute soloist....OMG.he's seriously cute,i tell you.his hair,specs n body built were purr-fect.ahhhhh,my salivary glands r acting up already.><

HOHOHO.after tt we went to marina square to look for cheryl y.okay,i wanted to look for cheryl y.haha.yup,then 2 of ivan's frens came..erm,mark n lionel....right?hmmm.=/



walked around with them for awhile.funny ppl.then i headed home to make "tang yuan(s)" with my mum.hahaha...i'm a nice daughter.XD

okay,that's all for today.i'm falling asleep soon.


signed,sealed,delivered.

slept at 3.30am last night.woke up at 3 pm today.LOL.took some photos ytd.was bored,can't blame me..

so here's a tour of my room:

end of tour.

LOOOOOOL.that's all for today.gonna go do tuition hw.yep,tuition hw.don't fall off your chair.hohoho.i'm doing hw!!!!okok,lack of slp.a lil' crazy.

signed,sealed,delivered.

(sing)it's raining,it's pouring,the old man is snoring.......etc.LOL.okok,i'm back from yixuan's place..it's still raining..like,IT HAS BEEN RAINING SINCE YTD!!!!!

hooooooo.it's nice when it rains but not when u're sorta rushing to places??i wouldn't mind if some crazy ppl wanna dance in the rain with me???but i doubt anyone is crazy enuff right??probably only me...HOHOHOHO.

anyway,went to the flower thingie with my mum,aunt n grandma ytd...almost died.as most of u know,i got dragged there.well,sry to disturb some of you with my constant cries of,"please take me home with you...."oh well,i was desperate at tt time.a whole level full of orchids???puh-lease.....i only liked the level full of art pieces made with flowers...at least it kept me sane.LOL.

so here are pictures of flowers..don't worry.i do not have the whole exhibit here..only took some that i thought were kinda pretty...

pictures are below:

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!new post for today.lol.my aunt's back from aussie.thank gawd.

so i got woken up by my mum at 10.15 to wash up n head to changi airport to fetch my aunt.but being lazy,i wobbled to the living room n announced,"could i not go??then u could jus buy lunch back for me k?i'm really tired."whoops.the lazy bug bit me.haha.

went back to sleep n woke up at 2.nobody's back yet,so i fumbled in bed for awhile and then continued to read my book.i'm left with 3 books now."lipstick jungle",some book by amy tan n "after summer",which i'm currently reading.a little boring.talks bout a guy called alex who leads a boring life.but i kinda like the feeling it gives me.feels like a having a nice cuppa n slouching around on a sunday afternoon listening to the blues.a warm,fuzzy kind of feeling.=)

oh well,i left my phone switched off since last night,haven't went online since i woke up n i'm not really bothered about checking my mail today.a lil' down due to a bad dream tt seriously reflected the situation i'm in now but i won't elaborate.ha!

okay,tt was dumb.but yeah,feeling a lil' lost n down now.don't really know wad i want already.oh yeah,for ppl who know me,i'm wearing my specs now!!!haha.i look kinda intellectual.ooooh.a lil' ego-istic over there eh?lol.

hmmmm,that's all for today i guess.gonna indulge in playing more dumb games online n eating more nuts to keep myself occupied and also to keep some things off my mind.=/



signed,sealed,delivered.

outing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!caps r nice.lol.shan't type much,i'm tired due to SOMEBODY.grrrrrr.

kk,pics are below:

JAP TOURIST??><

WE'RE GONNA BE TOMBOYS!XD

that's all for today.

signed,sealed,delivered.

hmmmm,woke up at 2.30 today...but my eyes are still half it's normal size.i'm dying soon.but i gotta go out for dinner with my mum n her frens later.lol.annual x'mas dinner.erm,a lil too early but oh well.

went to trim my hair earlier on,got my fringe a lil shorter.was getting in my way.LOL.

kk,can't type anymore,my eyes r getting smaller by the minute.><

*shouts in agony*


signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!!went to jo's place for twee-tion today...n the teacher came early.scared me.lol.but she's nice.typical 19 la...how naggy n stuff do u expect her to be???HOHOHO.

so after twee-tion we hung out n we did some photo-taking.okay,jo did some photo-taking.lol.n we pulled-off a "very" nice "stunt"...tt involves in e evolution of hairstyles,from thee oh-so-popular beatles to thee oh-so-preeeety teenage girls!!!!LOOOOL.watch that space below:

BEFORE:

AFTER:

okayy...a lil' blurred.n i look VERY SCREWED.but oh well.dun care la...lazy to bother bout thee angle.looool.

yup,tt's all for now.gonna go feed on my dinner.

signed,sealed,delivered.

WHERE ARE YOU?????????????????????????D:


signed,sealed,delivered.

ahhhh.still feeling the same things as late night.totally unbearable.besides,i'm reading a book called "the boyfriend list" which isn't making things better.brought back alot of painful memories.but i'm gonna bite back my tongue n finish the book.

sometimes it's really tough being brave.u just wanna sit there n cry in front of everybody but then there's a voice in ur head telling you,"no girl,u can't cry here.it's too embarrassing."simply dumb.human behavior.kills me.i need a break man.need my bomb shelter.sigh.


oh well,final resort.confession to you guys out there.if i like you,you won't have to wait for me.if i dun like you,waiting wouldn't change a thing.painful,but true.sorry.


signed,sealed,delivered.

secret desires,secret loves.i admit.there is such a thing in me.confirmed.lol.dun ask "y is qimin sayin all these",mayb i'm feeling a lil more,heartfelt today.or whatever that is called.feeling loads of things.happiness,bliss n fear all co-exists within me today.happiness when i see him talking to me.bliss when i ponder if he's into me too n fear tt i'm jus misreading the signals all together.freaky thing called love.kills me inside.i wish he'd jus read this n come up to me n embrace me,then say,"silly girl,i loved you all along."oh how i wish.u ppl out there wished tt it was this simple too right??but fate never agrees with your thoughts n wishes.okay,not never but seldom.

so sometimes u have ppl telling you,"baby girl,it's not you.it's me.i'm not good enough for you."n then u think,"not good enough for me??BULLSHIT!"but it happens.n when tt happens to me,i take it tt it's just not meant to be.although after tt i'd do a thorough check n see if there's anythin wrong with me.lol.

n sometimes you have guys telling you,"girl,i'd like it better if we remained as friends?"another one down.n then i'll console myself again n say,"oh well,guess he's just not the one for me."n the cycle repeats everytime i profess my feelings to a guy.not like it happens alot la..only happened,thrice??still within the number of fingers in a hand la.so you see,those 3 failures have caused me to be afraid to admit my feelings for that certain someone now.i've been denying all the way.ALL the way.n it's heartwretching.but i'm afraid.afraid to lose a friend,afraid that my world would suddenly feel as though it's crumpling down at my feet.my heart wouldn't be strong enough to withstand it for the forth time,my friends.so here i am,going crazy at the thought of not knowing what to do with my feelings.gee.this sucks.

okay,if anyone has this fool-proof plan to tell him my feelings,gimme a dial kk?thanks.


signed,sealed,delivered.

I'M TIRED!!!!!!!=(

LOOOOOL.woke up at 8 and and took a cab down to j8 to meet darren..he was late!!lol..den we waited for his aunt n his cousin...took quite long also.gee.so i spent most of my time reading my book till we reached the national museum.watched a not-too boring yet not-so-interesting china movie..then went to starbucks to waste time for e next few hrs..LOL.went home after tt.surprising eh.qimin goin home SOOOOOOOO early on a saturday..no life man..no life.sigh.


signed,sealed,delivered.

MUA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!i feel like a bad girl..okayy..only for the fact tt jo n i cancelled tuition 2ay...haha..

i went to kap with bernice n sat there reading books,feeding on fries,listening to music.haha..then bernice had a lil' too much coke n she went a lil' high..erm well,alot.LOL.

so,eddie came n we spent the next few hrs,talking,laughing,fooling around..kinda light-hearted.until i got a lil' slpy n started being drowsy.haha..so yeah..waited at the bus stop with bernice for her bus..then i headed home in a cab myself.

tt's all for today i guess.heading for the gym tmr..gonna lose those calories..LOL.


(the feeling of your tongue circling mine.passion.)<--line of the day from a love novel.


signed,sealed,delivered.

HOHOHO!!!!!didn't post ytd cause i was sick.SICK!!!okay la..was just aching all over..horrible feeling...even rosie claimed tt my lips were pale!!!LOL.

anyway i'm feeling better already.so with that aside,thanks to yixuan for letting us drop by her place n spend the whole afternoon there...haha..thanks babe!!!

was really feeling bad last night...nothin seemed to turn out right..almost murdered.i swear i almost murdered...so..sry to dean for flaring up at u in e sms...didn't mean to...jus,couldn't hold it in...sorry>.<

kk...gonna continue shaving my legs...hahah..


signed,sealed,delivered.

(sinister laughter)MUA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA....i am a happy girl today!!!!=D

okayy,woke up in the morning to go to raffles city to meet my grandma n my aunt..she's back from us!!!for awhile only...think if i'm not wrong,she's leaving on e 19th??i'll miss her though...lol.

after lunch i went to watch open season with my daddy as my mum,aunt n grandma went to expo for tt john little sale thing..it's a lady's thing..so i shan't interupt.lol.yup..open season wasn't bad..e bear is kinda cute..big,fuzzy n all..i dun mind hugging one anyday..XD

after e movie i went to market place to get some sushi for dinner n home i go!!!okayy...no more activities after tt..lol.

signed,sealed,delivered.

here i am spending the last 15 mins of saturday posting a 2nd post.which is dumb.which means i'm utterly bored.loooooool.

yup,fretting over how i'm gonna slp 2night..wondering how long it'll take me..last night was 1.30am...2night mayb it'll hit 2???i dunno.oh well,call it insomia or smth.i just can't freaking hell get to slp!wanna know y???ask me on msn or sms me or whatever means u choose to contact me with.hmmmm.yeah.i know the reason for the insomia this time.n worst of all??my bomb shelter ain't in town to inject my bloodstream with liquified sleeping pills...so yeah,gonna suffer from insomia until my bomb shelter gets back or smth.or until he decides to help his poor fren over here...lol.hopefully tt happens.(fingers crossed)=]

uh huh,blogging till 12 i suppose..i dunno..but i'm in the living room watching e 15th asian games with my dad(obviously he's snoozing away on the sofa).so yeah,table-tennis..s'pore against korea..nth interesting..y???cos it's always the SAME ppl..hello????i switch to ch 5 to see glum-looking ppl hitting a teeeny wheeeny white ball across a small table with a net in thee middle??uh uh...not my kinda thing..bores me..but i'm a nice daughter..so i watch it with my daddy.(i know you wanna throw up at this point of time.lol.go ahead.)>.<

okay,so to all the nice ppl out there who love me n care for me n happen to check out my blog once in awhile.good night to all of u...(it's not 12 midnight yet..so it's still night.i win.lol.)sleep tight n dun let thee bed buggies bite..(i sound like a mum dun i??hmmm..i'll be one someday anyway.ha!)=D


love ya all^^

signed,sealed,delivered.

HOHOHO...i was suppose to go town after lunch all alone n walk till i dropped or smth.but oh well,woke up at 12(much to my dismay),so i cancelled the original plan of being a loner...i was too tired anyway..lol.

so here i am,fussing over my peeling arms once in every half an hour..lol.n i just found out tt we could do theatre in jc!!!!!yeah man!!i'm so gonna do theatre..den i can fufil my dreams n act on stage!!do dramas n musicals..ooooooh.getting all hyped up already..jc,jc,jc!!!lol.but it's not a confirmed thing yet..so,i gotta work hard!!!haha...

okay,gonna tune down a lil'...i'm gonna take my photo tmr then go get my ic done on monday!!yay...gonna change my passport photo too...i look too different already..the lady at e customs thingie can't recognise me from my photo...lol..hopefully my photo comes out right..if not i'd die..haha..

kk,tt's all for now,gonna go enjoy my saturday evening at home with some sofa music n my laptop.

signed,sealed,delivered.

i left out something!!!haha.like what i told daniel the other day...i'm not gonna bother bout guys anymore...makes my life so complicated n unbearable.i can hardly breathe already.LOL.so yeah,bout tt person???leave it to all fate,i guess.still that same old line,what's meant to be,will be.

signed,sealed,delivered.

i need some peace n quiet!!!!ahhhhhhhhhh!!!okok,i'm getting fed-up cause of the grass-cutter thingie downstairs..creating such a racket.been cutting grass since 1 plus???it's 3 plus now already..darn.just when i thought i could slack n pig out ast home=(

oh well,had tuition ytd at jo's place..the new teacher ain't too bad...we agreed tt time passed faster with her..dunno y..LOL.so yeah,finished tuition at around 5 plus n jo showed me some stuff on her laptop.well,"chanced" upon some poem n i was a lil' startled by the person's definition of a poem???was a lil' scary though...told jo ms j would jump if she say it.lol.n we wouldn't want that to happen.hmmmm,short reminder to future lit students,please educate ur frens and/or ppl around your about the definition of a poem or prose.safe the lit population!!!!LOL.tt's a lil' exaggerated eh?hehe..

okay,back to my life.i've decided to wait til next yr before dying my hair dark purple...hoho.due to wat my mum said to me..i guess it wouldn't be right to go to school with dark purple hair too..a little too scary...LOL.so yeah,shall dye it dark purple after my o's instead.then i can don tt purple hair for all i want!!!haha..cause by then,it wouldn't create a large contrast against the white nanhua uniform.haha.

oh well,guess tt's e end of my post for 2day.oh yeah,jus folded 2 bottles of stars..wished the same wish over n over again for both bottles.bet u're thinking tt i'm dumb.but without dumb ppl like me,who would believe tt wishes do come true???haha.


signed,sealed,delivered.

HOHOHO....went to the gym with bernice n kaifeng today...thanks to kaifeng for being our driver of the day!!!haha...though we sorta got lost quite a few times arh...but thanks anyway...nice boy!!erm..no...nice man!!!(finish serving the army should be listed as "man" le right...)lol.

so yeah,we got driven around,first to the gym then to central for lunch.the gym was kinda packed 2day..dunno y...mayb cause we went in the morning..oh well,still did wad i had to do anyway..LOL.so yeah...kinda cool sitting in a car with a 20-yr-old man n my girl...haha.with all e loud loud music tt caused the whole car to vibrate???i gotta say that drivers these days r getting more n more dangerous.but i like it tt way.haha.

after tt we got "kicked out" of the car n landed in nan hua.wondering wad i'm doin there???to grab my gown of course.but bloody delivery man took such a loooooooooooong time to get to our sch...dunno wad he did..anyway,i finally got my gown n left sch.

took a cab with yixuan n bernice to bpp,allowing yixuan to go home on the way...LOL.so yeah,went to jean yip to accompany bernice on the hair-cutting journey...lol.the ambience there wasn't bad...had desert n tea...haha...like some tai-tai...quite scary n relaxing at the same time.after tt we headed home.

cultural potpourri is tmr n i wanna it to be over asap!!!haha...n damn!i'm having a really big urge of dying my hair dark purple now n not waiting for next yr..but i doubt i have a choice...wouldn't want my mum to screw ma...LOL.it'll be next yr i guess.

signed,sealed,delivered.

problem of the day:lack of sleep.i slept at 2am n woke up at 6.30am.went to sch to assemble to head to victoria concert hall for our rehearsal.all the way 9.30 to 2.30!!!delayed by an hr!!!y???the presence of ms yeo.she yakked n yakked n yakked...made the choir go up n down the stage THREE times!!!y????cause she said the way we walk sounded too noisy...hello?!?!?!?!?!?!u want us to walk quickly but u want us to be silent???wad r we to do...run on our tippy-toes???but then u'd whine tt running is so unglam!!!WTH.after e first trail run,we got scolded by ms yin cos we didn't really sing as well.sigh.guess everybody was a lil' nervous ba...plus e low-pitched mumbles of e "audience".i mean,our choir has always been looked down on??it's a lil' traumatizing ya know...sheesh.so yeah,the sky poured at around 1.30,had to struggle to reach lot 1 to meet my 2 beautiful babes...LOL.flattering eh girls?haha..yup...so qian ru cut her hair..erm..shall not touch on tt..haha...yup...so main prob of my day was......MS YEO.lol.

conclusion:today kinda sucks...kinda.LOL.

P.S:my lips r fine already=)muuuuuaaaaaccccccck!lol.dumb.

signed,sealed,delivered.

lip infection is back!!goner man...somebody save me!!!LOOOOOL.i need ppl with super powers...HOHOHO...kk,a lil crazy.it's pouring outside anyway.oh well,no link.think it's due to not slping enuff.haha.kk then,nights ppl!!!

signed,sealed,delivered.

LALALALALALALALA~~happy belated birthday to myself!!!!!haha...k la..tt's simply dumb...hmmm..thanks to all who have celebrated with me n for me...inclusive of all e peeps at the 2-10'05 chalet!!!!thanks alot!!!!haha...had real fun with all of u during the 3 days..nights of playing cards,getting drunk,struggling to slp..it was all worthwhile.=)

okok,thanks to sly for your flowers,n thanks to johnson for e cake(which everybody enjoyed).also thanks to dean for being the first to wish me when the clock struck 12..haha...also thanks to sean for being such a great guy n insisted on buying me a gift.ilu!!!haha.thanks to my mummy for a handmade sheep made from beads n daddy for an ipod nano!!!LOVE U GUYS!!thanks to rosie,mel,yixuan,felice,felicia,gwen,darren,bryan,jason,wei jie for wishing me on my birthday!!happy belated birthday to gwen n hui min too!!!haha...2 nice girls who share the same birthday as me.i'm honoured!!HOHOHO...

n to sean:thanks for everythin,n welcome back to s'pore!!i missed ya big time.hopefully your selection will turn out well n so would your knee kk??i love u=)


i thank lord for all the wonderful things n ppl in my life.i love them all.

signed,sealed,delivered.

hmmmm...horrible saturday.probably the most boring one i've ever had.but thank god i had yixuan,darren n trace to keep me up n going.oh well,until they got caught up in their own saturday plans tt is.sigh.

spent almost the whole week goin for choir n went to gwen's party ytd..mayb tt explains y i woke up feeling as though i had the worst hangover of my life.almost died.my eyes were like two lines drawn on my face?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?disasterous effects.lol.

anyway,i spent most of my morning reading a book called,"13 little blue envelopes".nice book.talks bout a girl braving the whatever-that-is-in-for-her-next kind of thing.ain't too bad.dun mind if my life was a tat as interesting as that.gee.well,as i was scrutinizing at the words in my book with my line-like,windows-to-my-soul eyes,yixuan called n i realised that she n rosie had been "discussing" whats going on with me n tt person.sorta freaked me out when i learned bout it.told her tt they could act as judges or smth n maybe figure smth out,only to realise tt she thought i had e ans to "it".sad to say,i'm confused myself.goner.well,i do hope tt after my birthday everything would be settled n i'd be able to give myself an ans.look closely babes,AFTER my birthday..which means it'll be 3 full days after the clock strikes mid-night TONIGHT.looooool.

gee.longest post since i-don't-know-when..kinda cool eh?haha..jus suddenly feel like posting.so here i am.gonna end soon though.can't squeeze anymore stuffs out.

last but not least,thanks to darren n eddie for the early b'day presents.thanks guys.=)

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!!went for choir in the afternoon in tee,shorts n slippers..so not right man...LOL.payed ms chan the $$ for the cultural potpourri tickets then had our usual practice.we've got a choir exchange cum performance tmr at victoria concert hall...all the make-up n stuff...i'm so gonna suffocate from all tt make-up...blech.

oh yeah...person finally appeared.i'm soooooooo freaking glad.i missed *** soooooo much???haha...it tough man...LOL.but everythin is fine now...hohoho..

*yawn*rainy day...nice weather to snooze in bed.but oh well,had to crawl out of bed for choir.today's practice wasn't bad.my yin seems quite nice(i finally noticed)...LOL.been having multiple practices everyweek,it's killing me.oh well,doubt i have a choice.cultural pot is coming.gee.another night with e spotlights being shone in ur face n having teacher fuss over ur hair n make-up.n goodness sake,u know how THICK the make-up is?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?it's like literally having plaster on ur face???yuck.

oh well.person is being mia again.doubt i could do anything to make things right.don't even know wad the person is thinking of?being nice for a period of time den suddenly behaving like a stranger the next.scary eh???killing me inside.sigh.

signed,sealed,delivered.

GAWD! i have come to realise the power of a fufilling workout with yourself knowing tt u have shed some weight.whoop-ee!!!utterly satisfying...LOL.e great feeling of sweating it all out,although u'd stink BIG TIME later on but who cares??u're feeling GRRRRREEEEAAAT!!!!haha..kk.short post for today.gotta keep my spirits up n going!cya!

signed,sealed,delivered.

having mood swings big time.sucks when u're missing someone like shit but tt someone often ask u irrelevant qns jus after u've told him u're missing him??like,wth?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!okay,mayb a lil' emo,but fact wad!!!!i feel like swearing soooooo much know,hoping that it would show my prowness or smth..but i dun think tt's right,so i shan't swear.sigh.sucks when the one u love doesn't show u enough attention/haven't used the right way to express love,while those tt u dun love flood u with LOADS of attention.sigh.MOOD SWINGS!!!!!can't hold on much longer.=(

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!!new post!!!lol.using my iBook now...so,hopefully everything will come out right.let's see,it's been ages since i've posted eh???haha.well,here i am.hmmmm,bought quite a number of clothes recently n i have came to realise,who cares what i wear,so what if it's weird or wad i'd say,"unique"?it's me tt's wearing it,ain't tt right?lol.come'on,i guess it has been quite well-known tt u associate all odd clothes with me.who cares whether it's down-right alien,typical 60s or even kampong-ish?if i'm able to bring out the look of those times,why not?no harm done,fashion is one BIG cycle actually.look,wide belts,high-waisted dresses,tell me,didn't you think those were your mum's fashion until they show up on e magazines next day?finding your own fashion sense ain't following the magazines n fashion shows on the teevee.it's bout knowing what u like n feel good in,well,with the fact that u also have to look good in them too.anyway,what i'm trying to say is,won't it be boring if u n your frens all wore the same style n line of clothes?your personality won't shine through then!!!ppl won't be able to recognise you even if u had your big name smacked right in the middle of your forehead.lol.okok,u might be wondering,"why in the world is qimin posting bout all these?"ok,i admit,i was one of those tt would look at my frens n think,"gosh,ain't she pretty?y can't i be like her??"but then after that outing with my girls on tues,i realised that,hey,being associated to certain types of clothes meant tt those clothes actually allowed my personality to shine through!so y not dress tt way?so,who cares if u look goofy,solemn or ghastly?come on,life is about variety(sounds like mdm yong)!LOL.so girls out there,or those who do pop out my blog n are feeling like how i used to be,check yourself out in the mirror n say to yourself,"this is me n this is who i shall be."so go out on e most comfy set of clothes or the set tt suits your mood e best now n out you go!!

okok,bad starting post for a person who hasn't posted for long.oh well.


signed,sealed,delivered.

new post!!finally...i'm posting at my school's com cause my com failed me..mayb i'll try my aunt's later...lol..so many things tt i have yet to post on...damn.i'm utterly upset.nvm.i'll post later i think.bloody sch keyboard is screwed.IT'S SO TINY!!!!kk,shall post(i hope)in the comfort of my home.see ya!


signed,sealed,delivered.

TODAY:went to meet qianru n ber n qianru's man at jec to go to e library.went all e way up to e highest level.saw a beautiful grafitti,or erm,drawing on e wall.lol.saw guy with hair streaked with red.kinda cool.turns heads.ha.cabbed to bp plaza,paid by qianru's man.feeling a little guilty.whoots.hung around in the bowling alley,walk walk around the basement.qianru n ber tried on some mascara.due to yours truly.lol.qianru's man went off nearing 5pm.read books at bowling alley.went down to mac to slack around where qianru yakked on e phone with her man.poor us,stuck with our mp3.lol.headed home around 6 plus,ate,continued reading my book.bookworm.XD

FEELINGS:something's missing in my life.well,not really.just for these few days.tempted to call but stopped myself from calling.see?i'm fighting against myself once again.dumb.i know what's missing from my life.i know it like shit.but i ain't gonna acknowledge it.due to {love of the subconscious mind}.i know i still feel.but i'm trying not to feel.simply impossible.i used to rely on that something ALOT.n now i'm trying hard not to.working,but it's unbearable.i even tried hating it.thinking that it's a useless blob of i-don't-know-what.persuading myself that i'm fine without it.but damn,i've proven myself wrong.once again.shucks.it's alright,i'll survive.i'm fighting against my own feelings.i shall prove to myself that it is just somethin that has filled my heart for that period of time.n now things are gonna change.i hope.


signed,sealed,delivered.

i can't breathe properly.due to the haze.or is it just me.hmmm,got back some of my results.not bad for the time being.lol.my mum bought the ko one soundtrack.can finally flood my ears with gu dan xin shi and bao hu se.they reflect my feelings man.so raw.

have been thinking ALOT.well,i think alot all the time.just this time,a little more.lol.told jo i was afraid.but then all this while,i wasn't afraid of ppl that might break my heart or guys,i was afraid of what's in me.what i call {love of the subconscious mind},the scary monster.haha.i'm constantly convincing myself that i'm not interested in guys,only to prevent myself from gettin hurt,like a shield from the storm.formed subconsciously,on my own.ain't cynic,ain't lesbian,just afraid.afraid to love somebody,afraid to watch my own heart be torn into shreds again.you may list me as emo but this is who i am.this is the emotional n dark side of me,the side that chooses to hide itself from the world.the side tt all of you are seeing is the happy-go-lucky side,the one that recovers really quickly from a fall.together,they make ME.only when u have seen n understood both sides then can you claim that you understand me.merely looking at the surface isn't understanding,it is reading.to quote from an old line,to "judge a book by it's cover".life is about understanding.cos there are too sides to everything.only when u have understood the meaning hidden in both sides,then can you say that you have understood.sheesh.y am i saying all these.majority would probably think i'm nuts n emotional n all that.oh well,shall stop here.

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF POOF POOF!!!!tmr is my last day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!exams i mean.oh well,lucky hist n c lit ppl who no longer have any papers.sigh.Y ME.......................mmmm..nvm la..shall pia my JLC n pray hard tt i can score better for my lit this time..seriously need 2 improve man.=/
TODAY'S THOUGHTS:actually,talking on the phone ain't tt bad after all.but still a lil not used to it.erm,i'm not talking bout those short conversations like,"yes?oh ok.no prob.cya!"..uh uh..not those..i'm talking bout those LONG talks over e phone.freaks me out a lil',specially if ppl start grilling you bout ur life n tt u like someone.i mean,WAD?!?!?!?!?i dun even feel a thing for guys anymore la..but i'm still straight..just,talking a break,BIG TIME.lol..not really a choice,just something natural.like part n parcel of life.it's good to cleanse ur mind n soul at times.just take things slowly.dun b afraid to spend more time than others.look,i'm not even anywhere near any legal age???so yeah,enjoy my teenage yrs first.love,next time then say la..no rush.XD have i become more mature already???lol..kidding la..oh well,time to strive.=)


signed,sealed,delivered.

TODAY:almost died over my ss paper due to time constrain n a bad neck ache.and a sudden relapse of my lbp dis morning.damn.went home as usual n cherylTAN came over to study bio.lol.but before tt,went 2 lot 1 n witnessed amber...erm,communicating with mr. macdonald.oh well,went home,studied n showered,in preparation to collect my papers from dean.mmmm,wasn't in a good mood due to my neck ache which in turn restricted me from writing properly.climbed up e overhead bridge reluctantly,wondering which way was to his place.n goodness,a couple of nice ppl told me tt i was actually at e back of beauty world already.so i slowly made my way across the road n to his place.note:still in a foul mood.lol.then i took the papers from him at his door n turned 2 leave.but at e stairs down,i was so bloody tired tt i wanted 2 burst out in tears,i turned back n said my first line,"the least u could do was treat me to a drink?""you could have said so earlier?"he laughed.so in i go for my cup of water.but i was still upset,due to some person(tt shall not be named) msging me things tt were getting on my nerves.so,i decided that tears had to roll.i asked for e toilet(my second line) n i repeated my question(my third line).after tt i sat on e toilet bowl(with my shorts on)n allowed n tears to flow freely,i washed up n went back to e living room.gathered my wallet,paper n cell n signalled to dean tt i was leaving.n gawd,i didn't even say bye.impressive.oh well,made my way to e bus stop n e long wait for 67 began.to my astonishment,dean decided to surprise me with a msg telling me thanks for collecting e papers.lol,i should be e one saying thanks shouldn't i?tt silly guy.oh well,he sent another wrong msg 2 me again.must be to one of his gfs la.shucks.ain't it irritating 2 recieve wrong msgs all e time?hmmm..nvm.

tt's all for now.

to dean:thanks for all that you have done.though i may seem like i'm trying to not talk to you but it ain't on purpose.just that i don't feel like talking that much.like,i'm afraid to speak because i'm not certain how the other party would interpret it.so maybe i'll start flooding you again someday.when i'm ready.

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!!!!!new post!!!HOHOHO....i'm a little high now due to some reason,shall tell you later in e post.firstly,exams have started n seriously,every paper have been zooming past so fast that i can't believe i'm done with 4 papers already?!?!?!?WEE...damn shiok la..tmr's sat...thank goodness.i'm watchin forbidden city tmr!!!KIT CHAN,KIT CHAN,KIT CHAN...erm,well,it's e show tt rocks la..hehe..

now,to whine a little...i CABBED to kap so as to pass dean his papers(since i'm such a nice n caring fren) and guess what????i waited for him for AN HOUR?!?!?!?!?OMG...i'm so freaking mad.first,i rush down to kap,wait for him n when he comes,he grabs his papers n go INSIDE!!!wad e hell?!?!?!?!?!i was left ALL ALONE outside...shucks.

with that aside,here comes e thing tt jo would refer as GAGAGA...as i was chatting with yixuan on my cell at mac(e outdoor part),this guy clad in yellow acs(b)...shirt,racerback,singlet??oh whatever...he walked by n i was like,VAVAVOOM...biceps that aren't too body builder-like,flat abs,nice legs n most importantly,OUT OF E WORLD-LOOKING face...omg.like,features that came out from a dream or fantansy,whatever u'd like to call it..n skin tt is oh-so-good..n what's best,as he ran his fingers through his hair,he was UTTERLY SEXY.cos normally when guys run their fingers through their hair,they look sloppy??but THIS GUY...is...HEAVENLY.

oh well,i shall continue "fantasizing" bout this guy tt i know nuts about cept tt he's from acs(b)...GAWD.if dean ever sees this post,he's probably gonna think tt this gd fren of his is whack.oh well,i dun care???lol.


signed,sealed.delivered.

STACIE ORRICO
I'm Not Missing You

Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that it's over
What else could it be, he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing I'm not missing you I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
It ain't even a problem


signed,sealed,delivered.

1. Single, taken or crushing?
-single??
2. Are you happy with your life now?
-happy but not satisfied.
3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
-if it's REALLY right,yes.
4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
-duhh...=.=
5. Do you there believe are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
-NO WAY.
6. Would you take back someone if he/she cheats you?
-been there,done that.
7. Have you talk about marriage with another before?
-i don't think so?too early la..
8. Do you want children?
-sure thing.
9. How many?
-2 to 3??i think la..
10.Would you consider adoption?
-y not??
11. If someone like you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
-smack in my face.haha..
12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
-used to.now,just wanna find e right person.=]
13. Honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did?
-shhhh...it's my secret.lol.
14. Do you believe in love at first sight?
-i suppose??=/
15. Are you romantic?
-i plan romantic things but often fail to execute them..
16. Do you believe you can change someone?
-hopefully.
17. If you could married somewhere, where would it be?
-erm...erm...i've got no idea.
18. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
-depends on who.hehe.
19. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
-not too sure leh..
20. Have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed it up?
-think so ba..
21. Have you ever broken a heart?
-yeah...
22. If one day your best friend fell in love with the boy/girl you deeply in love with, what would you do?
-erm...see lor..
23. Are you missing someone right now?
-yeahh..
Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.Write down their names in the list below.Tag them in their blog to let them know!
ahhh...who wanna do then do...i'm lazy to think...=/


signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!update about ytd's interesting incidents!!!haha..first of all,pictures!!!!not taken by me..but dean...=.=

dean's ideal daughter..i think.oh well,he thinks she's cute.and,she is.=]

evidence tt we have been studying..duhh..his pencil,my e math tys and bits of paper from my tuition book thing..

after e pictures,i'm gonna tell you bout some stupid(yet hilarious) things tt happened during our "quarrel" due to a math question.i know this is dumb,but oh well.as u see,we were "discussing" about e question and at e end of it,we realised tt i was right.tadaa!!!so,being me,i decided to stand up for my rights and my sleeve came down(i was wearing a racerback with a blouse thingie outside,2gether,they are ONE.lol.).and in e midst of dean attempting to fight back,e candy tt he was chewing on,came out!!!WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!omg...dumb rite??ahh...whatever..>.<

ok,i have to hereby solemnly apologise to ruth,who was there to witness me studying and getting REALLY bored..sorry.

after tt...hmmm..wad did we do after tt...oh ya..went over to taka to pass a book to a lil boy then hanged around...at around 6 plus,ruth had to go so dean n i walked her to her bus stop.erm,sorta.it was somewhere near her bus stop.lol.then we went to meet up with his bro,his cousin and his fren..lol..nice ppl.=)

reached home at around 11,got accused of being seen with a guy downstairs my block.like,damn!i took e cab home ALONE?????not fair...wrongly accused man.

oh ya,i have also decided to stop thinking bout vulgarities so much,it's bad for my image.LOL.

gonna do some more studying later.i know,u can't believe tt i'm gonna study.but oh well,BELIEVE IT.XD

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!!2nd post.lol.it's just pictures..don't worry.no more scary words o'mine..HAHA!!

here goes...

oh well,mostly random pictures suggested by jojo..but it's our BIOPOLIS LIFE!!!!!beautiful place..although e disinfectant stinks like hell,but e ppl n e toilets r cool!!!!haha..kk..tt sounds bad..but trust me,it's a place u would never have thought actually existed in s'pore.damn style.all e futuristic equipment.LURRRRRRRVE IT!!!kk...tt's all..i've yet finish my math..

signed,sealed,delivered.

POOF!!!post for 2day is a story..LOL.

once upon a time,there were 2 girls in a chem lesson.they figured their way around a molecule model thingie(whatever it's called) and came up with a multi-purpose product...

this is the original..then...

and as qimin(or liow on jo's blog)decides to search for e centre of gravity..

which jo then places e phone swiftly on e so-called product in less than 5 seconds.. after that they decided to play around with qimin's phone and after much attempts..

they then found e perfect position for flip phones.. ahhh..satisfaction...so they took a couple of satisfying pictures..

before the satisfying moments were achieved,qimin came up with a dance in event of attracting mr see's attention in class.here goes..

tadaa!!!!but qimin gt jo to rid of her face..HA!what shall not be seen shall not come from me..and after all tt dancing..postcards were written!!!

lol...end of story...oh well,at least for 2day..now i've gotta get back to my math..there's TUITION tmr...awwww...
next post shall be some pics from long ago..coming in 6 mins time..i think.

signed,sealed,delivered.

ahhhh...a new post after such a long time.now i've gt tuition with jojo.yes,it's MATH!!!!lol..scary eh???never believed i'll agree to have tuition.wads wrong with me??oh yeah,i fell down e escalator tt day.funny sight,a lil' like e jacky chan movies??haha.cept in e most unthinkable way.so here i am,working hard towards my goals.erm,short-term goals.HAHA.hopefully i can fair a decent grade for my end of year exams.things are getting tough.BIG TIME.

relationships are a NONO for me now..i'm gonna concentrate on my studies.besides,those stuff are stressful.AND I'M FAITHFUL.lol.if u ppl get wad i mean.*hint hint*

hmmm...sick at home now.with my nose all stuffed up and my old back injury hurting so much.damn.i doubt e school will sympathise with my condition.oh well,tt'll mean tt i'll hafta climb up e terrifying 12 flights of stairs every single day.SHEESH.

i don't know if u've realised.the feelings are still there.i've told you i will wait and i will stick to my words.i don't know what will happen in e future.whether we'll still get together.but i have faith.in you.best in all that u do.i'll still be here for you.u were perfect for me,and u still are.irreplacable is what u are to me.baby,i love u,i love u anyway.


signed,sealed,delivered.

thinking,thinking,thinking.sighing,sighing,sighing.nothing much to say.i shall love for who u r.for everything that u do.for all ur emotions.including ur bad days.i love.you.

tired.drained.been thinking loads bout e last vignette of joy luck club.innocence.laughter.where has it all gone to.i can hardly differenciate my true laughter from e ones tt i use to hide what i'm really feeling inside.sometimes it's really easier to frown or stay expression-less.materialism.money.figure.looks.where has all e simple happiness of e world gone to.the bared feelings of a person.to b able to laugh n cry as we wish to.to scream n shout.to protest against whats wrong.to have ppl believe n trust.to shed tt outer shell n show whats really inside.to b naked.metaphorically.to be selfish yet selfless at e same time.to have e courage to express.to try to brave all storms n change e world.or at least e ppl around u.to b like a child.a child no matter how old u are.to be realistic yet living in ur own world.to "be innocent yet protected from evils".where has e basic things gone to.lost in our age?or simple thrown away in e attempt to survive in e real world.i believe that the world is still beautiful.and it shall be beautiful.

signed,sealed,delivered.

new entry in my blog!!!haha..now tt e common tests r over,e pimples on my forehead r starting 2 clear..but now they r popping out at my mouth area?!?!?!?like y y y?!?!?!?!?!?argh.e last thing i need is pimples on my face..sheesh.
anyway,i'm on a routine with cheryl TAN to lose weight by friday,sounds like a crazy thing for her but it's a must 4 me..bye bye fats!!LOL.
OH YA..before i forget...there's a charity concert held at nus high dis sat at 3 pm n 7.30pm respectively.ticket prices r $10 for students n $15,$25 and $50 for adults or non-students.all $$ shall go to e SAC so please come.like,good cause n u can have loads of fun!!!details please ask e ppl around u or in e following schs: acjc,acs(i),nus high,nan hua high,shuqun sec,unity sec,united world college n yusof ishak sec.=D well,most details are stated already.so if anybody is interested,do make an effort to turn up kk??but do rmb bout e tickets issue la..like concerts r fun!!!we need help in e music n arts industry!!!MUAHAHAHAHAHA..
kk...enough of advertisments...i'm back on e seaweed frenzy again cos i'm simply feeding on seaweed.think i should stop,it's unhealthy.haha.
nth much already.got back some results,passed 3 subs so far(thank god)..so hopefully things won't go down slope later..XD

i'm gonna end entry this is in such a unthinkable way.

signed,sealed,delivered.

5 papers down,3 to go!!!okok..i'm like counting down to e end of our unendurable common tests..like 2 papers a day..it kills man!! but i've been feeding on "brain food"between papers..well,it's just whatever tt my mum stuffs in my bag.n it's not really brain food,just food 2 keep my hunger pangs down n to stop me from falling asleep during e second paper.ridiculous rite??everybody's mugging like hell n i'm FEEDING on food..LOL.
so,i got this stupid prank redirected at me by my baby's fren n it scared e wits out of me..like,i have a weak heart,please do not scare me like tt...so during my geog paper,i was shaking,holding back tears.about to throw up n struggling to write properly ALL AT E SAME TIME.argh.sick man.
but nvm,tmr i shall cut my hair!!well,trim plus a new fridge la..but i dunno wad will come out of e snipping session tmr.so please watch out for my new hair!!!but as though there'll b any BIG difference..mayb,mayb not.lol.
so tmr i'm gonna cut cut cut,buy present for my baby,plan plan n plan somemore on ways 2 give him a heart attack.no la...i meant,surprise.yeah..so wish me luck ppl!!! as i set off on my voyage for a new,positive me n evil,scheming plans to "surprise"my baby. =D

signed,sealed,delivered.

nails nails nails!!!but i changed already.lol.

i like screwing up my face..>.<

can u see our shadows???=D

bright light!!!ahhhhh...

we are REALLY bored..

back pain,lower abdomen pain,headache,giddy,wanna throw up..somebody please send me 2 e doc when u see this..

signed,sealed,delivered.