Paint a song for me.

i can't breathe properly.due to the haze.or is it just me.hmmm,got back some of my results.not bad for the time being.lol.my mum bought the ko one soundtrack.can finally flood my ears with gu dan xin shi and bao hu se.they reflect my feelings man.so raw.

have been thinking ALOT.well,i think alot all the time.just this time,a little more.lol.told jo i was afraid.but then all this while,i wasn't afraid of ppl that might break my heart or guys,i was afraid of what's in me.what i call {love of the subconscious mind},the scary monster.haha.i'm constantly convincing myself that i'm not interested in guys,only to prevent myself from gettin hurt,like a shield from the storm.formed subconsciously,on my own.ain't cynic,ain't lesbian,just afraid.afraid to love somebody,afraid to watch my own heart be torn into shreds again.you may list me as emo but this is who i am.this is the emotional n dark side of me,the side that chooses to hide itself from the world.the side tt all of you are seeing is the happy-go-lucky side,the one that recovers really quickly from a fall.together,they make ME.only when u have seen n understood both sides then can you claim that you understand me.merely looking at the surface isn't understanding,it is reading.to quote from an old line,to "judge a book by it's cover".life is about understanding.cos there are too sides to everything.only when u have understood the meaning hidden in both sides,then can you say that you have understood.sheesh.y am i saying all these.majority would probably think i'm nuts n emotional n all that.oh well,shall stop here.

signed,sealed,delivered.