TODAY:went to meet qianru n ber n qianru's man at jec to go to e library.went all e way up to e highest level.saw a beautiful grafitti,or erm,drawing on e wall.lol.saw guy with hair streaked with red.kinda cool.turns heads.ha.cabbed to bp plaza,paid by qianru's man.feeling a little guilty.whoots.hung around in the bowling alley,walk walk around the basement.qianru n ber tried on some mascara.due to yours truly.lol.qianru's man went off nearing 5pm.read books at bowling alley.went down to mac to slack around where qianru yakked on e phone with her man.poor us,stuck with our mp3.lol.headed home around 6 plus,ate,continued reading my book.bookworm.XD
FEELINGS:something's missing in my life.well,not really.just for these few days.tempted to call but stopped myself from calling.see?i'm fighting against myself once again.dumb.i know what's missing from my life.i know it like shit.but i ain't gonna acknowledge it.due to {love of the subconscious mind}.i know i still feel.but i'm trying not to feel.simply impossible.i used to rely on that something ALOT.n now i'm trying hard not to.working,but it's unbearable.i even tried hating it.thinking that it's a useless blob of i-don't-know-what.persuading myself that i'm fine without it.but damn,i've proven myself wrong.once again.shucks.it's alright,i'll survive.i'm fighting against my own feelings.i shall prove to myself that it is just somethin that has filled my heart for that period of time.n now things are gonna change.i hope.
signed,sealed,delivered.
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