Paint a song for me.

secret desires,secret loves.i admit.there is such a thing in me.confirmed.lol.dun ask "y is qimin sayin all these",mayb i'm feeling a lil more,heartfelt today.or whatever that is called.feeling loads of things.happiness,bliss n fear all co-exists within me today.happiness when i see him talking to me.bliss when i ponder if he's into me too n fear tt i'm jus misreading the signals all together.freaky thing called love.kills me inside.i wish he'd jus read this n come up to me n embrace me,then say,"silly girl,i loved you all along."oh how i wish.u ppl out there wished tt it was this simple too right??but fate never agrees with your thoughts n wishes.okay,not never but seldom.

so sometimes u have ppl telling you,"baby girl,it's not you.it's me.i'm not good enough for you."n then u think,"not good enough for me??BULLSHIT!"but it happens.n when tt happens to me,i take it tt it's just not meant to be.although after tt i'd do a thorough check n see if there's anythin wrong with me.lol.

n sometimes you have guys telling you,"girl,i'd like it better if we remained as friends?"another one down.n then i'll console myself again n say,"oh well,guess he's just not the one for me."n the cycle repeats everytime i profess my feelings to a guy.not like it happens alot la..only happened,thrice??still within the number of fingers in a hand la.so you see,those 3 failures have caused me to be afraid to admit my feelings for that certain someone now.i've been denying all the way.ALL the way.n it's heartwretching.but i'm afraid.afraid to lose a friend,afraid that my world would suddenly feel as though it's crumpling down at my feet.my heart wouldn't be strong enough to withstand it for the forth time,my friends.so here i am,going crazy at the thought of not knowing what to do with my feelings.gee.this sucks.

okay,if anyone has this fool-proof plan to tell him my feelings,gimme a dial kk?thanks.


signed,sealed,delivered.