i know this is ridiculous and TOTALLY RANDOM and probably one of the most immature things i'd ever do but,

WEIRU IS A BITCH.(although he's a guy but he's still a bitch.)

AND ANDY(WHATEVER SURNAME) MIN JIAN IS A BASTARD.


okay,other than that,i dragged bernice over for badminton today.which means i'm a happy kid cos' i FINALLY got to be an ass to the shuttlecock and smack it around.
HIAH HIAH HIAH.

and obviously we were doing stupid things downstairs (like taking stupid photos with my phone)and freaking the primary school kids out with my singing.
:D

bernice left at around 21 00 and i met up with ken.
the rest is up to your imagination.
HEHE.

{ken is such a babe.}

it's my parents' birthday today and i'm prolly more excited than they are.

:D

well,first things first,i gotta wrap the presents.and i'm feeling pretty much,VERY LAZY.but a daughter's gotta do what a daughter's gotta do.
I'M GONNA WRAP SOME PRESENTS.

that's all for today.or maybe if i get to snap some photos later i could post them on.

HAVE A NICE DAY EVERYONE!
(:

i'm running away.at least i'm trying.i can't simply let myself sink deeper.it's harder than i thought it was.things are getting out of hand.

{i don't wanna do this again.}

her heart thumped hard against her chest with every step she took towards those opened gates.she tightened her grip on the cellphone in her right hand,listening intently for further instructions;there were none,not even a single breath could be heard on the other end.she walked closer to the gates and then went in,inspecting the unfamiliar environment around her as she walked towards the front door,feeling her feet get heavier with every step.

'this is crazy.it's not like it's anything bad.he wants you.it's his birthday,and you're his gift.'she tried to convince herself,hoping those thoughts would lighten her mood.

the door clicked,the sound of the locks being turned,and then it opened.there he was.as perfect as ever,she studied his child-like face,the perfect proportion of his topless body,how could she ever be able to leave these all behind?

it was only the two of them,they had the whole house to themselves and there was something they both wanted,badly.

he pushed the door to his room open.the cool air greeted him like an accomplice as she walked in;it has been such a long time since she had been here.

she was reminiscing the past they shared,inhaling the slight floral scent of the room when he wrapped his arms around her,nuzzling her neck.she closed her eyes in delight,the ends of her lips curled.this was the moment they've been longing for.

falling back gently unto those familiar sheets,she exhaled with every thrust,he concentrated on feeling her;feeling her body and soul,he stroked her soft cheeks.

she wanted him badly but subconsciously she knew that there was something missing.she opened her eyes and looked at those delicate,beautifully-sculpted jaws above her,slowly tracing her vision to his lips and eyes;but there was nothing,as clear as crystal.they were history now,she knew.

she continued giving in to his demands,resisting the urge to cry and to hug that man she once loved so much.

'it's over,you can get dressed now.'

that line felt pierced her heart like a bullet,through the same wound caused by his empty eyes.she could feel her insides but she never stood up against him;she obediently nodded.

he watched her every move as she got dressed;she resembled a puzzle putting itself together;one with a scenic view,such a pity she was no longer his.he reached out across the bed to touch her.he felt her smooth hair run through his fingers,he wanted her to know how beautiful she was .

'don't go.i'm sorry.i was the jerk.i want you back.please.'

she turned around and looked at him,that capricious man.she fell into bewilderment;confusion in her eyes but soon the confusion hardened into anger.

'i'm not a toy.you left me when i needed you.and i am here being your gift.i loved you but you hurt me,caressed me when you needed me,insulting my pride when you're donewhat am i,a deal?stop hurting me baby,if it's over,it's over.let me go.'

she opened the door and stomped off.she was gone.he was left alone in his room,cold,naked and a jerk.he stared hard at the spot where she had just sat,not making any effort to go after her,to have her back in his arms;he had to let her go because she told him to.

had 4 PATHETIC hours of sleep today cos' i had to wake up at 08 00 to reach weiru's place at 10 00.i know what you're thinking.DON'T.
anyway,i was late and lost,as usual.and i took like 15 minutes to walk to his place when it should only have taken less than 5.
I'M AN IDIOT.

so we hung out for around an hour or so,then i left cos' he can going out.like,yeah i know what you're thinking.what's the point of me going over to hang out for an hour eh?!oh well,it works that way.
:/

after that i took a bus down to bukit merah interchange and then to tiong to wait for ber to finish school.
geek took over and i sat at mos for the next 2 hours,reading my second book.i bet you the people there thought i was a no life-er.HECK.

ber came after school and then we headed for ngee ann poly.for aaron's 'rehearsal'.
after more than an hour,had a free hairwash by the heavy downpour,the lead actor finally appeared.and failed to recognise me.
-.-

we all left at around 17 30 and headed home.THE END.
i'm hell tired.and hungry.

{it's time for you to move on.}

woke up at........................................15 00.

had lunch,went down to town with my family to spend my aunt's tangs vouchers awaaaaaay.
it got us a shirt for my dad,a bag for my mum and a charm bracelet for me!
:D
obviously we exceeded the amount stated on the vouchers.DUHH.

after that,evil twin took over when we're in paris miki,snap snap pictures of my face with specs.
pranced over to kinokuniya,intimidated all the books in the 'young adult' section and kidnapped 3 of them home.
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

THE GUILTY ONE.





{SPREAD THE GEEK.}

I'M OUT SICK.FLU BUGGG.YUCK.

the whole csi series' my best friend now.oh,numb3rs too.axn's like the host of my 'best friends'.i've got a thing,for crime stuff,no matter how bloody it is or how many eye-popping scenes there are.i can even eat and watch at the same time.

I LURRRVE CRIME-RELATED SHOWS.
:D

and that's all for today.i gotta get back to the tv.can't have it lonely without me.
HAHAHAHAHA.


{i've got a cute and horny guy friend.}

i've thought it over,for the past month or so,i've been running away from reality.unable to recover from past traumatic experiences.i need to get over them,else i'd always be afraid,bringing myself back to square one EVERYTIME.

so,maybe dean was right,that i should start trusting people again.being sceptical all the time is just making me miserable,hard-up and defensive.like,it shouldn't be this way at all,no?this whole,thing,kinda takes the life out of me,always worried,always wary.it's crazy.

that's it,i'm stepping out.i'm putting the past behind me.that guy ain't worth the whole deal.it's time i had my life back,for good.


{yeah yeah,whatever.}

like a nightmare,it haunts me.day by day.night after night.i lose sleep.and that soul in me.

it lives in my subconscious.taking away everything.my smile,my soul,my sight.

well,it's the second day of the new year and things aren't exactly going that well.
i'm sore all over,down with the symptoms of flu,pms and getting very much upset over somebody's weirdass behavior.

bout' that somebody,things are,slightly better now.but i'm not gonna pin any hopes.somehow it doesn't matter anymore.
:/

so,i'm hoping things'll get better.i do want them to be better.shall keep crying to minimum this year.start afresh.

alright,that's about it.have fun in school to all who are schooling now.

{i'm probably allergic to guys.}