it's approx. 19 hours to 2008!!i'm pretty hyped and down at the same time.which is very much what i would say.most of the time.

i'm irony in human.hur hur.

alright,enough of crazy rantings.just watched '200 pounds beauty' and i was on the verge of tears.my mum too.i peeked.
:X
but on the overall,it's a great show.LURRRRVE IT.

well,it's still a tad too early to be counting down and stuff,so i'm like,bored stiff.if my aunt's back,we could all start with our mahjong countdown party.topped with iced wine.sweet.
:D

alright,to end this very last post of 2007,let's do something retarded like,this:






HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
:D
:D

EMO CHINESE SONG.
:/

会呼吸的痛


在东京铁塔第一次眺望
看灯火模仿坠落的星光
我终於到达但却更悲伤
一个人完成我们的梦想

你总说时间还很多
你可以等我
以前我不懂得
未必明天就有以后

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

没看你脸上张扬过哀伤
那是种多么寂寞的倔强
你拆了城墙让我去流浪
在原地等我把自己捆绑

你没说你也会软弱
需要依赖我
我就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沉默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

我发誓不再说谎了
多爱你就会抱你多紧的
我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮着你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候
陪你做想做的无论什么
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

alright,it's like a few days past christmas already but i shall insist on the fact that there are 12 days of christmas,so....MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
:D

well,this year's christmas has been kinda BORING....cos' i didn't really do much.just walked around town,trying not to be stepped all over by.which is just,spoiling the whole christmas mood.

so,now i'm going around telling people how much i want 2007 to be over.like,in a jiffy.cos' i think this year had been a pretty bad year for me.
and so i want 2007 to be over and embrace 2008.
with love.

alright.that's all.the damned cold tab is still affecting my brain.and it feels as though my brain's all mashed up.yuck.


{it all seems easier now.}

morgan is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and that's all i shall blog about today.

(:

{i don't want no false alarm}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHERYL TAN!!!!!!!!!

i love this girl like,to bits.cos' she's been with me for 4 years already and has always been there for me.I LOVE YOU!(:


went out with dean today.met him at his place,almost missed my stop.heh.
and he was dressed pretty nicely today.seriously,i'm impressed.like,shirt,jeans and covered shoes.made me look so,shabby in my tee and denim shorts.:/

planned to have lunch at sakae before our movie that was at 15 20 but somehow the people screwed our order up and all we got for our lunch was our drinks.
-.-

well,rest of the day went quite well.had fun.at least it got my mind off things.
(:

alright,time for dinner.

{it was all a pack of lies yet i believed you.}

i'm aching all over from bad sleeping positions so i shall be a cranky,hardcore womanist today.

HOHOHO.

number one.
i think guys are troublesome.like guys nowadays can hardly make up their minds about even the smallest things like,what time they should leave home so that they wouldn't be late for their date.like,whaa??ain't that supposed to be like,something so easy that you don't even have to think?gee.

number two.
some guys EXPECT their girls to carry their things for them.all the time.furthermore,they even order the girls around.like,HELLO?we're not living in the qing dynasty and you ain't no king.

number three.
a number of guys have the tendency to regard violence as a fool-proof solution to all the problems.specially the chauvinists.and to make things worse,guys,when they're really mad,they kinda turn a deaf ear to all rational reasoning and then just give the punch.for real.like,as if the punch would make the problem go poof and out of your life.get real.

alright,i shall stop being such a womanist lest my guy friends start telling me how they're not like what i've stated above.
so,i'm not stereotyping and saying that all guys are like that.some are and they do get on my nerves.

it's the 21st century!it's where terms like,'gentleman',s.n.a.g' and 'independent woman' exist.so,time to move on into the next century!
specially the m.c.p(s).
;)

p.s.:I'M BAKING MUFFINS!CHOCOLATE CHIP!(:


{those are people you can count on.}

yeah it's over.

he's a,fraud.

he cheated money.

four-digits.

not my money.

yet almost landed me at the police station.

help me,beat him up if you see him.

don't hesitate.

just punch,kick,slap,whack.

i'd be really grateful.


{tis' the season to be jolly}

alright,i'm back from 411's chalet.and i'm in a mess.

it's a minute from 00 00hrs and my hair's still wet wet wet.plus there's chingay training tomorrow.at 08 00.i'm so gonna space.

okay,i've decided to be nice and stick to my words.i'm gonna post bout' all that happened after...............i posted bout' the end of o levels.
(though i'm feeling oh-so-lazy now.neeeeeaaaahhhhhh)

well,first there was prom/grad night/mixture of both,which i turned up in.....not a dress.make a guess,tie and suspenders were involved.HEH.
the night was full of make-up,squirmy people,invisible food and flashlights.at least that's almost what i remember from that night.
and though most of us planned to spend a night out,it ended up with a bunch of us snapping photos at the lobby of meritus mandrin,then leaving in either daddy's ride or cabs.ta-daa~!end of the much anticipated night of four years in secondary school.
like,weren't such nights suppose to end with a bang?now,where did that gun go to.(bad pun):x

next day was.....PAE?which was kinda,early in the morning and it was alot of chatting(and not listening to ms wassan's speech) and checking who qualifies to go where.
after that,went to kbox with yuhui and peifang.emo-ed+laughed my hours away.sounds psychotic.yelch.

after that was a pre-b'day celebration by bernice and yuhui for me.like,a day before the actual date.was really sweet of them.the cake really shocked me.never expected such stuff.well,thanks again girls.

and ta-daa!next comes my birthday.which was spent at 210's chalet.kudos to all who wished me and lots of love to my parents who made it down to pasir ris to deliver the cake to our barbeque pit.cos' it kinda saved us from starving in the drizzle.LOVE'YA!(:
and honestly,i loved the chalet this year.everybody seemed so,loving.in a way.but yeah,it was comfortable.i'd definitely miss the times we've spent together all these years.

then i couldn't really remember what happened in the next few days.

but on the 29th of november,christina and i had the 'it's my life' auditions at great eastern centre.it's a musical.and like,singing in a musical's my dream,lead or not.so yeah,i'm not hopeful nor am i doubtful but i shall just,let nature take it's course.:)

the next couple of days were spent with my guy so i shan't disclose too much.we had fun though.as you can see in the previous picture post.

after which was the 411 chalet.which somehow always ended up with 7 people staying over at night.and mind you,it wasn't the same 7 people on both nights,there were some changes.
barbeque was relatively successful and i did love the cosy feeling i had at the chalet itself.
we did loads of crazy things and it was fun.
LOVE YOU GUYS,LOADS.

well,guess that's a,summarized version of what went on so far and i guess it's time for me to really get my hair dried.or i'd seriously have problems waking up tomorrow.
:/


{you know that you are loved by many,when there's a warm,fuzzy feeling in your heart.}

i'm lazy and i'm sleepy so i'd just post pictures that we took yesterday while we were out.

and of course there are pictures with me and my guy in it but that'll be kept for personal viewing.hahahaha.
:D


















































































i don't care about the presents.........
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU.

O LEVELS ARE LIKE,OVERRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!for good.

hahahahahaha.

like,my modem 'exploded' on sunday.sorta.wasn't the OMG! kind of explosion but more of the 'boom.....' kind of explosion.and so there goes my modem.but now it's back.

YAY YAY YAY YAY.

okay,i'm off to get my contacts done(yes!).bye peeps.

HELLO CLEAR VISION.

woke up at 11 03 today.amazingly early for me cos' i did sleep at 03 53?something like that.

went out with yuhui yesterday to buy more prom stuff.i got my suspenders and then we took some neos and popped by pastamania at cine to see how's bernice doing there.wendy and her boy come down too.nice chap,think they're quite compatible.(:

and so we took some random pictures.











and today i painted my first shirt!!



that's all i did today.with hardly any studying.i feel like a loser.but there's always tomorrow,right?

HEH.

this is really random but i just gotta get it out of my system.no,it's nothing BIG but just some,thoughts in my puny head.

was listening to 93.3FM and it was playing a song by ENERGY.love song,like,duhh.what else would have triggered thoughts big enough to have me peel myself away from macbeth and attach myself to the laptop?

so,as i was listening to the song,an image of a person came into my mind: sean. our very first date at the beach and also how loved i felt at that time.with those thoughts in mind,my eyes fixed unto something near the right-hand side of my study table: neoprints. i looked closely at the ones i took when i was attached to him and then i saw something; there was bliss and happiness in my eyes.i was truely happy.

then comes the reality check: i look at the neoprints i took recently.though i was smiling in all of them(duhh..) but the 'shine' from my eyes were gone.like,no more sparkle.(sounds like some colgate advert) .

things have changed,he's like some HUGE jerk now and for me,the only things that i say to him are,"eh,my 10 bucks how??when??" and the list for the lines used for collecting debts goes on.no more lovey dovey,i-love-you-you-love-me.

oh,and before i forget,it's time to confess.most of you might think sean and i went through some,oh-so-romantic courting days before we got together but the truth is,there was NONE of that.courtship.hardly any.though we'd chat almost every night on msn before we meeting up but honestly,there was no courtship involved.

so how did we get together?well,this may sound absurb but we actually got together after our first date.like,RIGHT AFTER.so yeah,love at first sight?maybe.at least for me i guess.but in the end it still all came crumbling right down at me.literally,with the fall down the escalator.

now,here's a second confession.reasons why i haven't really gotten together with anyone PROPER recently(which means w****=no count) would be that i was looking for that same feeling i had with sean.that somewhat love at first sight feeling.

now,if i said no guy in this past year had made my heart skip a beat or two,i'd be lying.so yeah,there were the oh-so-sweet/mushy guys that were always able to make my tummy flutter with happiness with their sweet-nothings but somehow in the end,reality kicks in and a voice in my head would go,"no,that's not the one.not him.you'd be suffering if you end up with him...."and so i always end up looking like that BIG flirt that's just accepting appraisals from guys and often just smiling it off with no form of rejection until things get out of hand.fact is,i'm no flirt.maybe you could just call it,keeping a variety of choices so that i would be able to make the best decision out of everything.and unfortunately,it never works out.

in addition,with me getting on in my years(whaa??not even 16!!),the guys around me would obviously eventually 'grow up',which also means that sometimes the hormonal system takes over(namely the testosterones) the oh-mighty brain,and then they don't get a stiff neck but rather a stiff down-there.which is something i seriously hate.like,really hate.i mean,once-in-awhiles are fine but,all the time?!?that's just plain crazy.i've got better things to than to entertain your erective organ.gee.

so yeah,there,i have successfully analysed why i'm single and single and single.cos' i like it that way.

end of hell random post.i'm getting back to unseen,macbeth thy bulldog and joy luck mahjong/mother-daughter club.

slept at 03 25,woke up at 12 55.sleeping's turning in a torture.cos' i'm turning nocturnal and the weird dreams are coming back.

nocturnal cos' i can NEVER get to sleep before the clock strikes 03 00.and the time i spent on the bed before that,would be spent on my gameboy.and it's boring to play the same game EVERY NIGHT cos' the other games screwed themselves up.
-.-

so my first dream was about....playing in a band.and i was a percussionist.like,since when had percussions got anything to do with me?!?!and the best thing was,the band was on a world tour.imagine,rock band with a percussionist,on a world tour.like,WHAA???

and of course i got woken up at this point,by my phone blasting 'whine up' right at me.NICE.

back to dreaming.this next dream's about me living with loads of people.and me confessing to that one guy that was THE ONE for me.and then we live happily ever after.sort of.apart from the fact that the guy resembled some actor from TV.

and look what too much TV does to you. :/

oh well,i shall go continue feeding on my lunch.then go,find a way to wake myself up.my eyes are like two black slits now.MASHI MARO.

{black pepper crab crab crab crab~}

slept at 03 05 last night,woke up at 11 43 today.and i did study last night!! like,half a chapter.venice.heh.

had a really really really bad gastric last night.so bad i told dean i wanted to pull my stomach out of my system.
:X

and so alongside with the recent sightings of lizards(baby ones) around my house,i had a dream about lizards being in my room last night.YUCK.and they were jumping ones.like,JUMPING LIZARDS?!?!

i think i seriously need a shrink.my brain's doing weird stuff subconsciously.eee.

oh and dean did something really funny yesterday while we were texting:

(after a long while without any reply)
dean:did i reply?

me:uh,no.

dean:really??oh my god.I was waiting for you to reply me!no wonder so funny.i was thinking how come you take so long to reply!(don't mind the grammer)

me:so,this whole while you were thinking why i was taking such a long time to reply when you were the one who didn't reply?

dean:ya.

me:O.O

okay okay!time for lunch.then i'd go study and exercise,which is almost equivalent to jumping around.HOHOHO.

TA-DAA~!

new blogskin,new tagboard,everything's new!! except for the blogger.HEH.

woke up at 12 30 today and had 3-days-old sushi for lunch(refridgerated).tastes REALLY bad.rice was stiff and the seaweed was FLIMSY.yuck.but a pack of seaweed later made up for it.i'm a contented kid now. (:

i'm halfway through o levels,like,6 more papers to go?and somehow i'm more worried about lit and social studies.cos' they require me to write loads and write fast.which is something i'm really bad at. D:

oh and my mum did something really funny earlier on:

mum: wo shao si na ge lizard.(i burnt the lizard)

me: huh??shao si???or sha si??(burnt or killled?)

mum: shao si.(burnt)

so apparently my mum burnt the lizard to death.well,the lizard was found behind the pot of pig trotters placed on the stove.and my mum was cooking beside the pot when the lizard ran to and fro from the pot to the wok my mum was using and back to the pot.so when the lizard was under the pot,my mum switched on the fire,watched the lizard run out from beneath the pot,stagger towards the wok and stop dead.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

sounds like some kiddo story entitled "death of the greedy lizard" eh?

and when i checked out the lizard,trust me,it wad like,greyish in colour.eeeek.

that's all.i'm gonna go feel guilty bout' not studying all day today.and maybe try to study a chapter for social studies and read some lit.

AHH,I WANT O LEVELS TO END.

T.T

i can't believe i'd actually say this but i miss him.

no,not him as in d*** or s*** but actually him. like,after i sorta initiated the break up which i think was just out of anger,i actually regretted it.yes,i actually regretted doing something for the first time in my life.

mehh,this is driving me crazy.and i still have to seriously get myself ready for o levels.

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!!
D:


signed,sealed,delivered.

i am so gonna be what you call,deranged if i don't get out of the house in the next 48 hours.
which in other words mean i'm going out tommorow!!!to school,that is. -.-

believe it or not,i have NOT stepped out of the house since last saturday.unless you call going downstairs to "fetch" felice up to my house going out but that's not the point.the point is,i've been home for WHOLE SIX DAYS!!!consectively,mind you.and i've been standing by the window and staring out.shows how much i wanna be "out there" eh?hahahahaha.

and i finally rebond-ed-ed-ed-ed-ed-ed my hair!!!!feels so good to have straight hair once again.but the lady at the salon told me that this time it wouldn't last very long cos' my layers are too short.which means i need to start saving for the next session anytime soon. D:

okay,time to go mug.or rather,study geography.and somehow it always feels as though i'm studying geog for mr yeo's sake.this is bad.
:/


signed,sealed,delivered.

i don't know what to type for this post.relatively sleepy and empty.and i think i'm still emo.THIS IS BAD.

anybody with ideas to un-emo me?or,maybe,motivate me to study REAL hard for my o's?

like,i'm feeling REALLY lazy,which is bad at this point of time.crucial time of the year and i can hardly get enough sleep-.- but emancipation's on the way!!!no more school for me next week onwards or earlier.i'm gonna 'take leave' from school and make sure i get ample rest and mug my ass off for my o's.

shalt go emo a lil' more,take a LONG shower and start studying elective geography.this time,i'd not let mr. yeo down.HOHOHO.


& i'm feeling lovesick;

okay,i'm done with being emo.

and so now i'm back to normal,doing my normal stuff.which is like,spewing lame stuff.
HOHOHO.

well,went to town yesterday in the morn for my dermatologist appointment.sat there for like,30 mins?felt retarded.but at least he said i'm getting better,so i'm pretty relieved.
(:

then i had lunch with my parents.man,was it sumptuous.but with the SLOW efficiency of the restaurant,i was late for my date with my friend.
meeting time was like,1.30 and i only reached there at 2pm.
sorry ryan.
and also thanks for coming down to town though it was pretty last minute and stuff.
:X

hung out at burger king for the next few hours.and you wouldn't believe how many weird people actually eat at burger king.
first,there was this mafia-looking guy(spotted by ryan,and in which i totally agree) who look as though someone was hot on his heels or something.he kept looking behind him and taking glances of his environment.afterwhich,he started gorging on fries as though the last time he had then was eons ago -.-

next was this group of japanese girls,4 to be exact,that bought one (miserable) pack of fries,placed the tray on the table,then asked the counter lady to help then look after it(????) and then left to get something out there in cine.like,they could have bought the fries thereafter,no?

and in the midst of our conversation,i found out that ryan was in the same school as sean(remember him?) and they know each other.cool eh?like,singapore must be small.very small.
LOL.

hmmm,that's all for yesterday.shall go study something so as to feel,less guilty bout' not studying.


signed,sealed,delivered.

EMO;

i don't feel like talking.and so i guess i won't.

unless people ask me questions.i'd still appear all cheery and stuff.so please,do me a favour of not talking to me as much.

i kinda need to be alone.


signed,sealed,delivered.

and look at what lacking sleep can do to your reflexes:

i dropped that,box-like thingie you have on the laptop charger on my foot and by natural reflexes,one would yelp out in pain in approximately less than a second.

but guess what i did.i only screamed out in pain after....2.5 seconds.
-.-

I AM HOPELESS.I KNOW.

signed,sealed,delivered.

HELLO HELLO :O

random post o' the day:

i was walking towards the lift from the bus stop on my way home when i saw something round and transparent on the floor.and so i did a double-take.guess what,it's a condom!!smack right in the middle of the pathway.

nice way to tell me 'welcome home' eh?

ha.


signed,sealed,delivered.

SECOND POST O' THE DAY!!

and in reference to my personal message on msn which is now currently,'& i search the net everyday,hoping to find your answer; retard',i shall explain the whole,'inspiration' behind it.hehe.

okay,so 'it' kinda popped up in my head when i woke up this afternoon and started giving myself the daily dose of the internet.and so i do my usual stuff of going to friendster,myspace and blogs(including mine) and even check out my horoscope for the day cos' i got so bored.then,(!!!) it dawned upon me that i was feeling very,empty,though all the surfing of the net that i was doing.and so i realised that,i have been doing this routine thing with a thought in mind that i will find something that would eventually satisfy me and curb that emptiness in me.

and that thing that i was and have been searching for was actually an answer, HIS answer. with this answer to what was causing the emptiness in me,i have came to the conclusion that,i'm a 'retard'.and there you have it, the explaination to my,relatively illogical personal message.

today's a pretty much a bummer,with my eyelids weighing a ton,i have successfully finished revising....chemistry.but i've still got elective geog to study.

wish me luck.i might just zonk out in the examination hall tomorrow.


signed,sealed,delivered.

& gum is now my new best friend.

i popped a total of ELEVEN pellets in order to keep myself awake while studying for tomorrow's chemistry paper.and that's how good textbooks are at sending you packing to dreamland.
:/

hmmm,and that's all for now.till i come up with something random again.shall go mug for elective geography.and pray harder than i don't screw my prelims.


signed,sealed,delivered.

instead of asking,'got miss me?',why not just say,'i miss you'.

okay,that's like a.....thing that i've been repeating over and over again for the whole day today.but seriously,why??what's so tough bout' telling someone you miss him/her?it's good to voice out,no?:/

hmmm,that's all.


signed,sealed,delivered.

The tag game


Each player of this game starts off with TEN weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own TEN weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose SIX people to be tagged and list their names. NO TAG BACKS.



one! i am afraid of the dark.VERY.like,i'd freak out if it's so dark with no source of light at all.



two! i am a neat freak when it comes to my living and working environment.and so if my table is messy,it probably means i'm not doing work.so now you know.ha!



three! i tend to wanna cringe and die when i see lovey dovey couples behave in their lovey dovey ways.



four! i think piercings are cool.but well,not excessive ones.hahaha.



five! my dream is to sing in a musical.if i can actually make it through.:/



six! i can't stand guys who look as though they've just climbed out of the rubbish dump and still think that they look 'cool'.turns me off biggie.

seven! i like to twirl or play with my hair when i've got nothing better to do.this irritates people around me at times.

eight! i don't like to feed on abalones!!!surprise surprise....

nine! i am very bad at going down the stairs.i tend to trip,fall and roll. xD

ten! i don't like to watch fireworks alone.it makes me go emo.don't ask me why.lol.

that's all! and i don't think i'd 'tag' people.i'm kinda lazy.

signed,sealed,delivered.

dilemma;

to forgive or not to forgive;that is the question.

the thought of you and your (#*($&$(@*#@!@)(!@()!!!!! "maid" still pisses me off.i mean,you @(*#($&^$*&#@(&@#(*!!!! liar!!!!!okay,that's dumb.but,i'm still pretty irked.:/

and so i have to admit that i think of you every saturday(due to that saturday when i went over to your place),and it kills me.cringing inside yet i can't tell.cos' i cleared you off my cell phone.and so i can only try really hard to forget that you've ever existed.and apparently you decided to call,dashing all hopes of me erasing you off my memory.coincidence or intention?i wouldn't know.now i just feel like a big fat dork.gag.

and i guess a part of me wants to forgive you...but yet another part of me nags at me about your "maid",knocking me back into reality,making my blood boil with fury.and so i decided to succumb to my anger and frustration.i chose not to forgive you.but now i'm in this state of dilemma,and it kills.really.i need to be emancipated.


signed,sealed,delivered.

contemplation;

somebody save me.


signed,sealed,delivered.

you know,sometimes it irks when people think that you're dumb cos' you appear to be oblivious to what they're doing behind your back and also the lies that they say.like,it's not that i don't know,it's just that i don't care.i just don't wanna stoop to your level and expose you.i could jolly well let you continue living in your own fantasy world.that sucks,i know.but i'm just that way.

and so the only time i'd expose people is probably when i cannot take it anymore,or that the lies are getting way outta hand,to the extent whereby my pride is a stake(you know who i'm talking about).and only then would i start lashing out insults,like,a tit for a tat.works eh?lol.

so yeah,that's about all.so if you think things that you say or do won't go around,think again.words are much deadlier a weapon than swords.sounds weird,i know.haha.


signed,sealed,delivered.

okay,here's something really random.....


i want a hot gay friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i mean it.

told'ya it was random...so don't say i didn't warn you.:X


okay,pathetic short post once again but i'm real bummed,so,goodbye laptop and hello bed.(:


signed,sealed,delivered.

watching 'extreme makeover:home edition' makes me cry.and if any one of you out there are thinking that it's some show about people going under the knife,boy,you are so wrong.

it's a show whereby a team of people go out there to help the needy;those who hardly have a proper place to live in,people who have special needs and also those that are homeless.now,don't you see why i tend to cry everytime i watch the show on sundays?you do,don't you.

and every week when i listen and learn about the things that those families have gone through and how hard they have tried to survive,i can't help but notice how fortunate i am here with my family and friends.besides,most of us in singapore have a proper home to live in and also people who actually care and bother bout' us.and if you're shaking your head and thinking about how naggy your mum is,think again.how many of us actually risk getting shot dead or killed everytime we step out of our house?i mean,provided your dad's from the triads and your life is at stake with every step you take,then i reckon you have all the reason in the world to start whining about how life for you is pointless.otherwise,i don't think any of us should actually start getting all suicidal and stuff for the smallest things.it's not worth it.at all.

so go on,take a look at your own life in a whole new way,go understand the people around you and learn the ropes to loving your family members.your life may just turn out to be more meaningful than it used to be.like what i've typed in my pm,"there are people out there that need us."and i mean it.


signed,sealed,delivered.

i am back to prevent my blog from decomposing and releasing methane into the air!let's just say i'm trying to make an effort to save the earth:/

okay,things are kinda...back to normal between me and HIM,like,yeah.best friends.hahahaha.i was kinda shocked when i heard those two words...the last time i heard them was probably...centuries ago?hohoho.so yeah,i'm pretty cool with it(:

and so the stress is building up in school,specially with unreasonable teachers(you know who i'm talking about),and tons of homework,it's pretty tough not getting a headache.so,my way to tackle stress?exercise my arse off and hope that i won't die due to a heart failure.hummm.

that's all i'm gonna post about i guess.wanted to post photos though but like it's SLOW so i shan't bother to post any.call me lazy but i still ain't gonna post'em.ha!

bye for now.(:(& bye forever to that liar,oh no,it's LOSER.)


signed,sealed,delivered.

i love you;really.


signed,sealed,delivered.

PAULA DEANDA
"Doing Too Much"
(feat. Baby Bash)

I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you try'na diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into
Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)

See you got me all alone
Waitin right here by the phone
For you to call me
Just to hear your voice tone
I keep on wondering if you was even feeling me
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be

Tell me im'ma waste of time
Boy you showing me no sign
Is it cuz u on ya grind cos' you're always on my mind
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through

Now here I go again blowing you up
And my girlfriends keep telling meI'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up
And my girlfriends keep telling meI'm doing too much

I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you try'na diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into
Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)

I'm out with my girls try'na have a good time
And you know I'm looking fly
Try'na meet sum other guys
But it gets hard sometimes cos' there ain't no one just like you
I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me through

All i can picture is the color of your eyes
And the way u make me smile
I ain't felt this in a while
But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion
But I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem
sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
The way I feel about myself cuz I got self-esteem
sometimes I wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy

I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you try'na diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into
Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)

[Baby Bash:]
Just leave ya name and number
And Im'ma holla at cha
Just leave ya name and number
And Im'ma holla at cha
Just leave ya name and number
And Im'ma holla at cha
Just leave ya name and number
And Im'ma holla at cha

Ronnie Ray all day
Women in the hall way
Ev day losing track of the people try'na call me
Don't take this the wrong way
I been havin long days, doing it, moving round the town
Wherever I'm getting my song played

Now here I go again blowing you up
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much

I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you try'na diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into
Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Doing too much

P.S.:& i'm missing you already.


signed,sealed,delivered.

& homework causes headache.a really bad one indeed.:/

spent the whole day trying(note:trying) to finish my homework which currently consists of chemistry,social studies and english.i'm pretending that my english homework doesn't exists cos' i haven't got any inspiration at all.besides,i've got double the inspiration to look for cos' apparently,i've got two essays to write.argh,dreading.

and now the problem with my chemistry is that,whilst everybody spent their holidays doing their tys from back to front(which is the so-called right way,with reference to jesse lim's arrangement),this girl over here(obviously me) has been doing her tys the 'right way round',which is from front to back.so now i'm in deep shit cos' she wants to collect them and i'm nowhere near the back.great.

as for social studies,it's a paper that has once been done in the past,so obviously i've got totally no idea what to write.specially when you're 're-doing' the paper.well,i could have just dug up my old copy and zapped it or something but apparently,i'm trying to be a nice kid and have a conscience,so here i am,struggling to finish it before the clock strikes midnight tonight.wish me luck peeps.

and so i'm off.


signed,sealed,delivered.

& i'm feeling hangover-ish.loser.


and so i went to acs(b)'s carnival yesterday.wasn't too bad.but wasn't very entertaining either.erm,no offense,boys.:X

after that we(bernice,ruth,yuhui&me) went to meet up with christina at newton mrt to go over to sph for her rehearsal.after much hooha-ing in the toilet,the semi-finals of the singing competition started.and,unfortunately,christina didn't advance into the finals.):but well,she was having a sore throat,so i'd say it was good enough that she could sing a whole song without losing her voice.(:

left with yuhui and bernice as ruth left earlier,we headed to plaza singapura for supper....at mac.==first meal of the day for me and it was a fillet-o-fish meal.how nice is that.:/

and here comes the worse part of the day.we got stranded in town till 1.30am with no available cabs in sight!!!and my dad had to resort to cabbing down from my place to fetch all 3 of us home.zzz.

well,that's probably the end for our....'stranded-night-out' yesterday.i'm too tired to remember details.behh.

P.S.:bernice called citibank for a cab.hahahahahahahahahaha.


signed,sealed,delivered.

hush, don't speak. don't move, just breathe. allow me to lean against your chest. to feel every breath taken by you and to feel every heave caused. hush now, don't ask. slowly feel yourself falling into deep sleep. with every breath acting like an off-switch for your muscles. relax, i'd be here, there's nothing to worry about. i'd be right here with you, i won't leave, i'd give you my word. we'd breathe in unison. our souls merged as one. so don't be afraid, let go of your past, and listen to the calls of the future. just listen.

P.S.: i could have confessed.i could have told you to be my guy so that you'd get to give me some TLC.i could have lunged forward to hug you.i could have......but i stopped myself.and sometimes i'd wish that you'd want me too,that you'd wanna grab me and hug me.i wished i knew.



signed,sealed,delivered.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY STEPPED INTO A NEOPRINT SHOP AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME!!!and it's with jo(:

went on a shopping trip(sort of) with jo in town today.and we're seriously not loaded with money for shopping.

we started at far east where jo first got her skinny jeans and her belt,then with me getting my second pair of denim shorts at 77th street(surprise,surprise).then we strolled down to wisma to see if there were anything that'll catch our eye(s) in there.but apparently,nothing caught our attention.except for a guy-ish necklace that i bought in the basement area.

next was takashimaya,where i attempted to show jo the big $399 dkny bag that i saw when i was with my mum last week,but it was gone!!!so i don't even get a chance to contemplate about making it mine):

headed to cineleisure's pastamania for sodas while we give our poor overworked feet a well-deserved rest.and after that rest was when it happened;we took neoprints!!!(be appalled,please.)and to think we went for a second round of neoprint-taking...we must have been real bored,okay,we were.:X

so after that it was a step into heeren(the toilet there) and out,then an attempt to find seats in the mos burger outlet at orchard emerald.unfortunately,none were found.so jo ended up buying mags to read on the bus and we were off to the bus stop.home sweet home!(:


and popular at lot 1 in lousy cos' they don't have fabric paint):


signed,sealed,delivered.

& i'd succumb to jealousy.always.


signed,sealed,delivered.

i am a chickedy chicken cos' i couldn't stand walking home from kap.ha!

okay,it ain't that bad.but it sucks when you're bent on walking home,only to give in to the temptations of an air-conditioned bus,away from the heat of the setting sun.well,i could have tolerated the heat if i had my hair tied up but pity i hadn't,so air-conditioned bus,here i come!(:

studied with bernice at kap today.and i'd say it wasn't a very successful attempt at completing my work as most of the hours spent were on chatting and trying 'really hard' to finish one pathetic question from my social studies tys.and i've got bad handwriting now,a very bad one.upsetting.):


and reply to jo's post on her blog.i shall try my best to pass of as a 16-year-old!!!!well,i am sec 4,no?hahahahaha.

P.S.:c'mon,i know you miss me....oh no,big ego,big ego.:X


signed,sealed,delivered.

note:i like davy jones;tentacle man!!!

okay,that's simply crazy but i can't help it when i'm watching boht pirates 1 and 2 over and over again.:/com'on,we all know it's nice,and funny,and interesting,and action-packed,and,and,well,it's nice.(:

okay,i'm suppose to be out with my family,shopping for my clothes(theirs too) and also for my dad's father's day gift.but i reckon we'd be a tad late.oh well,not a tad.we're gonna be really late.and it's all cos' i'm watching pirates 2 now.behh.:X

alright,enough bloggin' for today.better concentrate on the movie,lest my dad decides to question me bout' what i've watched.ha.see ya fellas(:


signed,sealed,delivered.

no strings attached;

something i can hardly deal with yet would always have to deal with until i settle down once again.and last time settling down was alot easier;if the guy likes me,asks me to be his and i fancy him too,ta-daa!i'm attached.but now,it's more of,'i like you but i love him more.and i'm waiting for him,sorry.'and you'd think that's just some cheesy excuse but look,heart-felt words okay??haha.

that's all i have to say for today.gag,feel so much better after spilling things out.:X


signed,sealed,delivered.

& sometimes you just need a break;away from the rest of the world.

okay,that's dumb.i know.but i kinda like that feeling,if you know what i'm talking about.:/

so i'm staying home all day today,spending 2 hrs trying to finish my lunch and contemplating if i should start doing some work.okay,i SHOULD do some work.shall try not to cram everything into the last week of the june hols.cos' i know i'd live to regret it.hahahaha.

reckon that's all for now.i'm too sleepy to actually post a proper post so i guess i'll just hafta go do something else lest i bore whoever's reading this.:X so long my fellow comrades.ha!


signed,sealed,delivered.

vortical attraction.

i want you to have hidden agendas.so that those smiles would have hidden meanings.that the heat from your hand would have meant something.that the way that you referred both of us as 'we' would have its own meaning.that those eyes that looked at me in that manner would have meant that you wanted me.that the comfortable ambience around us would have been for a reason.please let all these be true.cos' i really do want you.



signed,sealed,delivered.

OMG!!!!!!

i am like relatively speechless now.can't believe my eyes.

oh man....heart's beating so fast now.oh crap.

please let me know what my heart says is true.cos' i wanna stare forever into those hazel-brown eyes o' yours.



signed,sealed,delivered.

i'm am sneezing and sniffing like crazy and i don't know why.how great.

and so today's the last day of school.but it ain't much of a difference,really.remedials for almost every subject would take up loads of my time during the holidays already.heck,i can't shop as much as i want to now):

behh...can't think straight now...a lil' woozy.so i'm gonna stop typing here and post somethin' longer tomorrow:X

P.S.:reply reply!!behh.


signed,sealed,delivered.

first: guess which phone is mine and which is yuhui's??ha!betcha don't know.

second:doodles in negative.green poop by jojo.(:

i am bored and hungry and feeling weird today.been eating alot recently,can't seem to stop.think my period is coming or somethin'...weird weird.behh.

ahhhhh.i am pregnant cos' i've been having this really bad need to eat sour plums recently.oh no.tell me who's the daddy of the baby.lawl.

okay,enough of crap for one day.gonna go get some shut-eye before my eye pops out.ha.

P.S.:mass supper partaye!!!!!!!!(:

signed,sealed,delivered.

I'm qimin and i have an asymmetrical fringe!!

I love my asymmetrical fringe cos' it's even more asymmetrical now after a trimming session!!!

asymmetrical fringe!!!!(:

P.S.:oh boy,please lemme know.cos' i'm missing you so.):



signed,sealed,delivered.

first:drinks that we had yesterday.red one's my mum's,yellow's mine,green's my aunt's...don't they remind you of the traffic light??lol

second to fifth:pictures of my newly bought stuffed seal.big,ain't it?hahahahahahaha..(:

that's all..i'm tired and lazy and gonna go do more jumping-jacks.

signed,sealed,delivered.

& i'm feeling so much better already!!!though i didn't go to school today.decided to take a break...even a day is fine.cos' I NEED A BREAK!:X

so jo texted me to tell me how i've done for my papers.i'm happy with my bio n chem results...but when she told me bout' math,i'm like,ahhh,horrid.seriously,i'm that bad at math.hahaha.like i always say,"i can't count for goodness' sake".and it's true.really.so i guess i need loads of help with math.anyone math prodigy wanna render their services??my doors are open.ha!sounds weird.

okay,so by now u'd know the effects of a really bad headache...and i'd better stop before i start 'spewing' secrets n then go run into a wall in an attempt to kill myself.

that's all folks(sounds so looney tunes),i'm gonna go rot in front of the teevee while waiting for my mum to come back with lunch.i'm hungry.

P.S.:where are you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!):


signed,sealed,delivered.

THE DOC DOES WONDERS!!(:


my hammies seem upset):

P.S.:i'm missing you badly.dammit.can we go out already?o.O


signed,sealed,delivered.

hello hello hello(:


i'm officially down to ONE lasr paper for mid-yr examinations.chem SPA!!!!woohoo~~i can finally start going out again.hell knows when since i last went out with the girls.=X

erm...erm...ahh,dammit.bad headache.okay,that's all for now..gonna go get some shut-eye before my headache kills more brain cells o'mine...argh.


P.S.:teehee,i like it when you come talk to me.(:


signed,sealed,delivered.

okay...i'm lazy to type the "coming up next" thing...so my lit paper one is officially over since yesterday..and i've got chem paper one,bio spa and chinese paper 3 coming up.heck.==

and my mummy bought me hammies!!!!!and the larger one's named ebb and the smalled one's named matt.hohohoho.pictures below.

the last picture is a lil' off...and i shan't tell you what issit.hahahahahahahahaha.

that's all for now,i'm gettin' the cold soon so i'm gonna go turn in.):

signed,sealed,delivered.

E MATH PAPER ONE!!striked off.
SOCIAL STUDIES!!striked off.
CHINESE PAPER TWO!!striked off.
BIOLOGY PAPER TWO!!striked off.
ELECTIVE GEOGRAPHY!!striked off.
ENGLISH PAPER TWO!!striked off.
E MATH PAPER TWO!!striked off.
CHEMISTRY PAPER TWO!!striked off.
LITERATURE PAPER TWO!!striked off.

COMING UP NEXT:literature paper one!!macbeth(: and unseen):

so maybe lit paper 2 wasn't that bad after all.hopefully i wouldn't lose tt much marks due to my incomplete qn 1a...i wrote the last point that was in my head down and didn't conclude or add anymore points.like,hello,it's only a page n 3 quarters long!!oh no.....):

tmr's paper 1...think macbeth wouldn't be too tough(i hope) but for my unseen....to put it simply:i'm horrid at unseen.i don't know the method to answering you see.so i do hope some reference from my lit file might grant me enlightenment.hohoho.i'm just wishing.=X

still currently trying to lose weight.and the dumb fact is,i don't do weight-taking.so hell would i know if i have really lost weight or not.oh well,at least visually i'd down-size or somethin'?not height-wise...rather...flabby arms n oh-so-huge thighs n halway-to-flat abs.ha!see?i'm fat.dammit.

okay,before i start my whole self-conscious routine/whining session,i'd go finish up my lunch and go bury myself in lit.heh.

wait wait,before i forget,i love my myspace layout cos' it's got a human looking thingie with a star head.and it's expression is:X_X.c'mon,you know it's so darn cute.(:

P.S.:he called.well,miss-called.i was having my lit paper):but i'm still happy that he called.hee.love-crazed idiot.


signed,sealed,delivered.

E MATH PAPER ONE!!striked off.
SOCIAL STUDIES!!striked off.
CHINESE PAPER TWO!!striked off.
BIOLOGY PAPER TWO!!striked off.
ELECTIVE GEOGRAPHY!!striked off.
ENGLISH PAPER TWO!!striked off.
E MATH PAPER TWO!!striked off.
CHEMISTRY PAPER TWO!!striked off.

COMING UP NEXT:literature paper two!!!THE JOY LUCK CLUB!(:

man,i'm like hoping that mid-years would end like,real soon.5 days seriously seem like a chore to me.i wanna take a break from muggin' and just head out.long time since i've been to town.long time since i actually took more than 2 mins to choose my clothes.i've been going EVERYWHERE in tee,shorts n slippers!disastrous ain't it??i'm actually running out of clothes to wear.or maybe it's just the fact that i'm gettin' FAT.):

so my aim for now would be to lose weight!!!like,seriously LOSE WEIGHT n BUILD MUSCLES before i die of fat-ness.behh.

and if any of you out there is interested bout' losing weight and toning up with me,gimme a dial and we'd start work asap!hohohoho.toning up is piority now.=X

that's it for now cos' i'm seriously suffering from love sick-ness and hoping that it'd go away soon before i turn all emo on everybody.heh.keep your fingers crossed peeps.


signed,sealed,delivered.

E MATH PAPER ONE!!!striked off.
SOCIAL STUDIES!!!striked off.
CHINESE PAPER TWO!!striked off.
BIOLOGY PAPER TWO!!striked off.
ELECTIVE GEOGRAPHY!!striked off.
ENGLISH PAPER TWO!!striked off.

COMING UP NEXT: e math paper two(oh great.) and chemistry paper two(splendid.)

i seriously screwed up my elect geog paper with chunks of crap from the puny brain cells o' mine and my jammed up right hand.behh.and marks are definitely lost cos' i didn't know what were the measures taken to reduce haze in this region.): can't blame me for liking terms like 'eutrophication' too much.

so now i'm taking a break for the oh-so-nausea-causing journey on 188,before i start memorising math formulas & methods(like what mrs tan adviced earlier on) and then go jam my head up with chem formulas too.then hopefully after all that i'd have some time left for a practice session on test papers(for both subjects).seem like lil'??ha.with the rate that i'm going,it's probably gonna be 10 when i finish memorising all the formulas and stuff.then i'd suffer from ague and die or smth.hohoho.

so before people(sly) see this and call me pessimistic/emo again>:{ i shall go take a short nap to resurrect moi soul.=X


signed,sealed,delivered.

E MATH PAPER 1!!striked off.
SOCIAL STUDIES!!!striked off.
CHINESE PAPER 2!!striked off.
BIOLOGY PAPER 2!!!striked off.

COMING UP NEXT:elective geography+english paper 2.

okay,i've seriously got nothing to blog about cos' it's mid-year exams now.so currently i'm occupied with mugging and de-stressing,hoping that the exams will blow over soon then it'd be the june holidays!!!woohoo~!

so that's all for this oh-so-bloody-short post and maybe something more interesting would happen soon.hohoho.

P.S.:good luck to christina for tmr!!!!(:

P.S.2:i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!alot.=X



signed,sealed,delivered.

okay,so the gown's REALLY unflattering on me,but who cares??it's my last performance in nan hua!!!so i'm just really glad when ms yin told us that this was probably one of our best performances.i'm proud of our choir!!!!so who cares if we aren't as good as other CCAs?we've excelled in our own ways and c'mon,you can't compare performing arts groups like that,can you?we're all of different genre!the crucial point to success is to have pride in whatever you do.hear that juniors??take pride in choir!!(:

so although i'm more of a 'part-time' choir but i do have a sense of belonging and pride in choir!just that sometimes practices do bore me,so i end up being a part-timer.well,world-known fact bout' my existence in choir!haha.

that's all for today and being a senior,i really do hope that my juniors would be able to fulfill what they told me the other day,to be a gold with honours choir by the next syf!we seniors would be rooting for you girls(and guys) all the way.you can do it!(:

signed,sealed,delivered.